I love you, brother.

I am chatting with him, brother. And my tears are dropping.
He has just started his working life two weeks ago.
In the past weekend, the first weekend I went back home since after he had started his work, for a bank.
He is doing sales, I knew it.
He has been arranged for some kind of training at outstation since last Monday,
and I only able to see him on Friday night.
Saturday, he went for work at 12pm and came home at 10pm. We talked.
He received another arrangement to go back to the place (outstation) on Sunday, and must be reporting to there before 10pm.
Hence, Sunday, he got to start his journey at around 7pm.
He did, and I was seeing him off.
My tears was dropping down by seeing my lovely brother is now working as an adult, fighting for life.
He looks so tired, and his face seemed getting old.
He is my lovely brother, who is fighting hard to survive. He has started to earn living. And I seemed have read the toughness of working from his face, I felt his stress, and it makes me to yell in my heart, BRO, je loves you!

Take care, bro.
Thank GOD to arrange this lovely bro into my life.
Thank mom and dad who brought him to be my brother.

I love you, bro!
Now je is gaining back the strength and spirit to fight for life again!
Let's move on! :)

To GOD..

God, I am stressed up!

I have no idea what's going on, but truly felt the stress even I am on leave now though.

What's going on dear Lord.. Save me please.

I couldn't make myself relax a single moment from the work.

I felt the dissatisfaction over my current work.

I dreamt of my work even when I was sleeping.

Since when I am fully stressed up over my work.

I started to think: Lord, this is not the "career" that I am pursuing.

Started to doubt the life that I am having.

Dear Lord, please show me your guidance.

To GOD.

To GOD,

I can't stand it.

:'(

I'm sorry.