I shouldn't sleep so sounds without a job.

I shouldn't have a so relax life without a job.
That's why I wake up.
Continue to send resume. Ganbatte to myself.

或许..我永远都不可能是妈妈称赞的那位.

今天, 买了个RM9的罐子. 缺了一个角.
妈妈问道: 你新买的罐子?
我说是, RM9.
妈妈惊讶道: 你用RM10来买这样的罐子?! 嗨哟! 你这样不会把家, 以后要怎样嫁人? RM10买个这样的罐子, 你老每个月5 千都不够啦! 他要做到三更半夜来养你. 你看以后你生了孩子后, 买奶粉买尿布, 做多多也不够你花..
我笑而不语.
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那是妈. 从不赞同我的妈.
从小在家人中不会维护我的妈. 我永远比姐差, 姐姐出门在外都常常打电话回家里, 而我只是有事才会播电回家. 我比弟差, 弟比我有能力, 能带她满山跑, 节省顾家.

而我, 就跟小弟一样, 没有责任感, 做事糊里糊涂.
尽管月入再高, 她总相信我没有储蓄.
她说, 我一会坐吃山空后才要找分工.
她说, 不要选工, 有钱就去做.

听似道理, 我却从没被她肯定过.
我的内心害怕子欲养而亲不在, 所以在我还有能力之时, 我带她去旅行. 虽然不是环游世界, 但那是我能力所及.
我花红发了, 想着就把全部给了她.
我或许不会用言语来表达我对这家的爱, 但我能付出的, 我从不犹豫.
因为, 我就爱我的家.

不被肯定的感觉, 比小时候强了.
或许因为我付出了, 却得不到她的青睐.
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好好的哭吧.
别想太多, 我还有一个我知道非常爱我的爸爸. 不会嫌弃我的爸爸.

爸爸....

The days without support from Family.

I have been resting with no job for 3 months.
I quit my previous position because of less interest in that job, and I wasn't really happy in the company.

The first job I entered, it wasn't the job relates to what I studied. As my mom said: Just go in, it is well paid! I took the job. And I did it for 2 years.
For the past two years, the regrets of not doing job that relates to what I studied were occupying my mind. I even complaint about things like a peanuts to GOD. It was miserable indeed. I might get a good pay.. but what is my prospect towards that job? I could be understand nothing about that job, but I am sure that nature of job is not what I am asking for in my future.

I am searching for a new job. But it's been 3 months. What's going on? I never get a reply from anyone.
Maybe.. I did not really put an effort on it.
Alright, keep it on dear myself!
Nothing is wrong to look for a desired job.

Keep it on dear myself!
Cheer!

New friends.

Met a friend, who has a very powerful skill in socialize.
It was from an iphone apps, Sayhi. It is an apps which you can chit chatting randomly.
We had a great first chat. I was invited by him to join a charity programme, Bone Marrow Donors Programme as a volunteer.

The very first time after 24 years, I talked like a damn! I never thought I can be dealing with people from 10am to 12am, midnight! Whao, big credit to him and of course myself.

He is in his last page of twentieth. Going into 30s.
A talkative, sensible, serious but funny people.
He doesn't scared of people at all. He spoke with his confident, he does things with his confident.

He is the person that I should learn, his socialize skill.

He led me to talk.
He taught me to talk.
He brought me opportunity for jobs.
He introduced me new friends.
And these happened within the first 3 days we have met each other.

Thanks J.

他回家了。

我们，每天都在为生活上的事争论。

国家政治。
工作素质。
薪金养老金。
新加坡永久居民权。

怎么有那么多争论不完的事？
是我太固执？我太专制于自己的想法了？
还是他有太多人给他意见给他想法？

希望一切赶快停止。

那颗原始的心

赶快把那颗原始的心找回来。 :)

沉默

学习沉默。

A long lost friend.

Whoa. A long lost friend.
I found a long lost friend.
He is always on Skype actually, but we had never been contacting each other since ages ago.
He no longer activate Skype for times, but with the contact number shown there. I dare to contact him again.
I couldn't remember how did we lost touch.

Anyway, it's a weird feeling to re-contact a long lost online-friend. :S

祝福

“我们”成了过去，我选择了离开，你也选择了放弃。


以后，我会让自己活得精彩漂亮。
你也要快乐，早日遇见属于你的“她”。

祝福。
真心的祝福。