世界

简单却怡人的景色，贪婪地眺望，多想将它的一切尽收眼帘。

心中的疙瘩

这是命运。

未老先走样- 肥肥

竟然有个经常hang out 的朋友再一次灯光霓虹昏暗下把我误认成：为什么有个aunty 站在我后面？

当时情况是如此：
我们正在排队，等待个游戏。
人很多的情况下，我们的位置并没有非常整齐，乱中有序。
我原本站在朋友的前面，后来站在他的后面。
当他正想要分享一件事时，本能的转过身寻找熟悉的脸孔。
当他转过身，却欲言又止。
他正思考我是哪位aunty, 怎么会站在他后面！

我。。。。。。。。
好无奈。
反省中。
是否。。就是我走样太多了！？

糟糕呐。

女人，生孩子是天职，保养何其不是？
何况我。。还没生。

俗语说自作孽不可活。太贴切了。

省思中。

祈求上帝。

Dear Lord, I am going to attend an interview at ABB next week on Tuesday. 

I sincerely make a wish to be blessed. I know you are with me all the time. And I know you were the one who brought me the luck. Dear my Lord, I will do me best to catch it. I will do my best for it.

Thank you, Lord. 

With love.

偶然，我读到这 -- 女人，如何面对旧情人。::感触::

女生应该如何面对昔日的旧情人？

恋爱的时候天荒地老，上刀山下火海，分开的时候咫尺天涯。女人应该如何面对旧情人，才能让自己释怀，重新找到属于自己的爱情。有的人面对旧情人总是藕断丝连，分分合合，浪费了时间，耽误了青春。其实，女人在面对旧情人的时候应该更加，明智一点，过去就过去了，不要再留恋。

1、不能堕落

有些女人因为失恋所以变得很自卑。自我封闭，认为是自己的问题，每天以泪洗面，把自己弄得很痛苦，好像没了他就活不下去了。身边的人再关心也不在乎。对自己的生活很灰心。其实这样，只会让对方看不起自己，要以积极的心态，擦干眼泪大步往前走。要告诉自己会找到更好的，没有谁离不开谁。

2、不可以再做朋友

如果分手后还是做朋友，那就会导致一方还不死心，藕断丝连的，对对方抱有幻想。希望做不成恋人做朋友，可以陪伴在他身边，希望哪天以自己的真情，打动对方，然后复合。不合适的人复合了也许还会有类似的矛盾解不开，还会再伤害，这是一种煎熬。期间，你要面对自己心爱的人，和别人在一起甜蜜，恩爱。已经分手了，那就洒脱的抛弃一切往前看，再做朋友已经没意义了。

3、不能再见面

分手了就应该开始新的生活，再见面只会刺痛自己，何况以什么身份见面呢，朋友不是朋友，恋人不是恋人，见面也不知聊什么，只会尴尬。因为曾经爱过，伤害过，见面，只会让对方想起那些不快乐，还不如远远地回忆美好。所以分手了，就优雅地离开，开始自己的新生活，不要以任何借口见面。

4、不要伤害自己

很多女人因为承受不了失恋的打击，就会马上开始新的恋情，希望可以弥补自己受伤的心，其实这样做只会伤人害己，让不相干的人忍受你的坏情绪，还不一定找到你想要的安慰。再次恋爱的时候，你要想着，你已经可以开始新的恋情了吗，有时候伤痛可以让时间解决，女生们，懂吗？

不说

想念的话，无需表达，如果没人珍惜。
生气的话，无需表达，生气时说的话总是那么伤人，伤了人也无法挽回事实。
应酬的话，无需多说，非自于内心的话听起来好不真实，累人累己。
伤心的话，放在心里就好，别人无法将你的伤心带走，只能好转或暂时忘了，最后靠的还是自己释怀。
担心的话，别轻易表露，收在心里，没有人是你的谁，免招闲言闲语。
是非，要懂得避免，往往祸从口出，守得了自己的口多少能豁免不必要的是非，别人也无法轻易的对你下定论。

利用

你对自己好，就会变得更出色，在别人眼里，就更有价值。
而你对别人付出太多，自己就会变得更薄弱，你的利用价值完了，也就完了。

别老想着取悦别人，你越在乎别人，就越卑微。
只有取悦自己，并让别人来取悦你，才会令你更有价值。

一辈子不长，对自己好点。

24th Birthday.

Happy birthday to Me.
Oh I am 24 years old. A golden age :)

Different from the old days, I don't have a bunch of friends to celebrate my birthday.
Neither do I hang out till late night with bunches of friends.

This year, I wished so much Boyfriend is celebrating me a "two-person" birthday.
I was hoping a very little romance that he might give.

Unfortunately, Boyfriend is too far away from me. Seriously, I have no any mood to celebrate with anyone, but him.

That is why, I rejected every lovely invitation.

I love you Boyfriend, wishing the next birthday coming up.

I am worried.

No job for 3 and half of the months. I started to get worried.

Do send more emails.

God please bless me.

I hate it.

I hate the feeling of missing someone. It is like a shit!

I shouldn't sleep so sounds without a job.

I shouldn't have a so relax life without a job.
That's why I wake up.
Continue to send resume. Ganbatte to myself.

或许..我永远都不可能是妈妈称赞的那位.

今天, 买了个RM9的罐子. 缺了一个角.
妈妈问道: 你新买的罐子?
我说是, RM9.
妈妈惊讶道: 你用RM10来买这样的罐子?! 嗨哟! 你这样不会把家, 以后要怎样嫁人? RM10买个这样的罐子, 你老每个月5 千都不够啦! 他要做到三更半夜来养你. 你看以后你生了孩子后, 买奶粉买尿布, 做多多也不够你花..
我笑而不语.
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那是妈. 从不赞同我的妈.
从小在家人中不会维护我的妈. 我永远比姐差, 姐姐出门在外都常常打电话回家里, 而我只是有事才会播电回家. 我比弟差, 弟比我有能力, 能带她满山跑, 节省顾家.

而我, 就跟小弟一样, 没有责任感, 做事糊里糊涂.
尽管月入再高, 她总相信我没有储蓄.
她说, 我一会坐吃山空后才要找分工.
她说, 不要选工, 有钱就去做.

听似道理, 我却从没被她肯定过.
我的内心害怕子欲养而亲不在, 所以在我还有能力之时, 我带她去旅行. 虽然不是环游世界, 但那是我能力所及.
我花红发了, 想着就把全部给了她.
我或许不会用言语来表达我对这家的爱, 但我能付出的, 我从不犹豫.
因为, 我就爱我的家.

不被肯定的感觉, 比小时候强了.
或许因为我付出了, 却得不到她的青睐.
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好好的哭吧.
别想太多, 我还有一个我知道非常爱我的爸爸. 不会嫌弃我的爸爸.

爸爸....

The days without support from Family.

I have been resting with no job for 3 months.
I quit my previous position because of less interest in that job, and I wasn't really happy in the company.

The first job I entered, it wasn't the job relates to what I studied. As my mom said: Just go in, it is well paid! I took the job. And I did it for 2 years.
For the past two years, the regrets of not doing job that relates to what I studied were occupying my mind. I even complaint about things like a peanuts to GOD. It was miserable indeed. I might get a good pay.. but what is my prospect towards that job? I could be understand nothing about that job, but I am sure that nature of job is not what I am asking for in my future.

I am searching for a new job. But it's been 3 months. What's going on? I never get a reply from anyone.
Maybe.. I did not really put an effort on it.
Alright, keep it on dear myself!
Nothing is wrong to look for a desired job.

Keep it on dear myself!
Cheer!

New friends.

Met a friend, who has a very powerful skill in socialize.
It was from an iphone apps, Sayhi. It is an apps which you can chit chatting randomly.
We had a great first chat. I was invited by him to join a charity programme, Bone Marrow Donors Programme as a volunteer.

The very first time after 24 years, I talked like a damn! I never thought I can be dealing with people from 10am to 12am, midnight! Whao, big credit to him and of course myself.

He is in his last page of twentieth. Going into 30s.
A talkative, sensible, serious but funny people.
He doesn't scared of people at all. He spoke with his confident, he does things with his confident.

He is the person that I should learn, his socialize skill.

He led me to talk.
He taught me to talk.
He brought me opportunity for jobs.
He introduced me new friends.
And these happened within the first 3 days we have met each other.

Thanks J.

他回家了。

我们，每天都在为生活上的事争论。

国家政治。
工作素质。
薪金养老金。
新加坡永久居民权。

怎么有那么多争论不完的事？
是我太固执？我太专制于自己的想法了？
还是他有太多人给他意见给他想法？

希望一切赶快停止。

那颗原始的心

赶快把那颗原始的心找回来。 :)

沉默

学习沉默。

A long lost friend.

Whoa. A long lost friend.
I found a long lost friend.
He is always on Skype actually, but we had never been contacting each other since ages ago.
He no longer activate Skype for times, but with the contact number shown there. I dare to contact him again.
I couldn't remember how did we lost touch.

Anyway, it's a weird feeling to re-contact a long lost online-friend. :S

祝福

“我们”成了过去，我选择了离开，你也选择了放弃。


以后，我会让自己活得精彩漂亮。
你也要快乐，早日遇见属于你的“她”。

祝福。
真心的祝福。

Time

Time flies.
Keep on going, to the dream.

Secret.

There is no secret in my Mom.
Kinda sick of it.

人

不知发生了什么事。 你说，你有谱。
请对我公平些。

流言蜚语，好烦。
学习一笑置之。

人生嘛，何必太计较。
:)

把不属于我的骄傲戒掉。

你，只懂爱自己。

把这份不属于我的骄傲给戒掉，我也爱自己。

或许我也很迷惑

或许，我也很迷惑，要怎么面对这样的心情。

有些事有原因的发生了，
可以怪自己，
可以怪别人，
精神得到所谓寄托。

但命运不如自己想象般进行，
要怎么才能让自己精神受到托付？

尽管说破了唇，你没把我的话放在心上。
或许因为我无法感同身受你从小就立志的梦渐行渐远。
我们的想法不同，你已经判你的梦死刑，你不再有梦。
我却天真的要你相信只是时间未到，只要你没有放弃，一直往梦想走去你的梦不会消失。

我也没预料事情会走进今天这一局。
或许，这是天真，我还很幼稚的相信未来不是梦，只要有行动。
对我而言，从没真正去追随过一个梦，想想我应该也没资格引导你。

负能量，快离我而去。。。

23岁半年12天。

雨夜，今晚我失眠了。
胡思乱想了一通，前面的路该怎么走？

周杰伦唱追不到的梦想，换个梦不就得了。
我对自己说，难得有梦，千万别放弃。
但事与愿违，有时真的身心疲累。

杰伦也唱了对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨，跌倒了就不敢继续往前走。
小狮子别怕，前面的路就如预期中充满着未知数，就算一个人也要把路走完。

It doesn't make sense.

Out of a sudden, you text me just to tell me my friend is a shit.
Warned me not to treat my friend too nice. I might be used.

The lecture made me felt how naive I am.

A little depression, you are such an important role in my life.
Or maybe, I depressed because how naive I behaved.

Well, treat nice to those who only worth it.

First week - Day 2

Last night weighing : 5430g
Took two oranges for breakfast.
Nothing for lunch, just water. Oh and coffee.
Did not jog today as OT till 10.30pm :(
But had dinner with chocolate cereal.. :S

Night weighing : 5380g
Success of the day : -500g.

...

First week - Day 1

Morning weighing : 5520g
Took two oranges for breakfast.
Nothing for lunch, just water. Oh and coffee.
Jogged at stadium nearby for half an hour in the evening.

Night weighing : 5430g
Success of the day : -900g.

:D

Let's go for diet!

Since 16 year old, I never been 45kgs with my miserable height of 155cm. Well, it will be great regret if I never experience it. xD
Let's do it, even it will be just once in lifetime.

Search and found below most cheerful example and decided to try it out:
Orange diet for 3 weeks (daily ration)

Week number 1.
Boiled Eggs (2 pcs.) Oranges (1 kg), still water (2 liters)

Week number 2.
Empty porridge (usually buckwheat), oranges (1 kg), still water (2 liters)

Week number 3.
Oranges (1 kg), any vegetables, fruit, still water (2 liters)

During this diet, you can leave with at least 10 kg.

This is an article picked from thousand websites. Let's just try it out and see what's the result.

Current weight: 55kg

“你根本就不知所谓！”

一个人追求梦想并不可怕，没有恒心就变成人谓的“不知所谓”。
没有人会在乎你努力的过程，人只在乎你最终的成果。

一个人努力，不孤单，但被批评被误解时好不是滋味。
或许就是无法接受别人的意见，或许就是在乎别人眼中的自己，我慢慢改进着。

终究喜欢独自行动，也习惯从不被束缚无需交代的生活。
活在自己的世界或许孤单，我却乐在只有自己能体谅的世界里。

他

男：如果没有她我们之间会怎样呢？
女：你和她，的确在一起了。
男：你有没有对我动过心？
女孩静静的看着男孩。。

告诉自己：不要放弃！

别让畏惧阻挠自己无法向前。
在困难也要相信，不到前面，就永远不知道前面有什么。
只有勇敢，狠下心来，决不退缩绝，咬紧牙关，命运只在自己手里。
别怀疑自己的能耐，我也不知道自己有多大能耐，只有全力以赴！只有不断往前走！

牛奶往前进！

He is different.

He is really different among peoples that I've met.
But bad, we're from different world.

Still, it is blessed. Thank God again, for letting me to have met such kind of him.
:)

星星知我心

星星知我心，在遇见属于我的那颗星星之前，不管发生了什么事，我一定要坚强。

我要好好保护自己，自己的命运我自己主宰。

30th January 2012, jumped ship.

The first day right after one whole week of Chinese New Year holiday, I informed my very first BOSS in my life that, I'm going to leave my post, PMC.

Dear Mr. Y.Wada, I'll remember your kindness. I know I will.

A VERY BIG THANK to you.

Something that makes me wanna shout it out! If there is the day...

A gentleman will only love a good and decent woman?
I wish to be one for you.

Certain thing, it's beyond my control: I need to believe in that, we are from different world. How real.
We will be forever living in our own world, there will be a gap, a line, a lot of differences and a great distance that GOD had made.
I am not given the ability to across em. I am willing to try, but there isn't any strength from ya.. So, there is no point for me to do so.

I will not worry for you, I know you will live well, eat well and smiling always.
Good night.. :')

事事都不順心..

Inferior or Respect?

Need no to feel inferior to anyone, but only to those who deserves to be respected.
Need no to shout when you ain't that pleased, the earth is made to be round and everything goes by the rule that has been predefined by it's nature.
I'll live my life while you are having yours. No matter who are you, I should always remind myself: Be realistic! It ain't everyone deserves your respect.

Self affection.

Love yourself by educating yourself with wise knowledge.
Love yourself by living a simple yet joyful life.
Love yourself by persisting in something that you like to do.
Love yourself by paying effort to the life that you want.
Love yourself with the world.

我不配。 ：）

幾番相處，你讓我不自覺喚起初次戀愛的懵懂。
一种羞涩，一种欣赏。
而當今的情況，我只能大聲的向老天吶喊，我不配！
或許是上帝的安排，＂當朋友＂是他安排我們相遇的旨意。
他知道我們會因此而更幸福。:)

祝福，感恩上帝仍通知我你的存在。。
祝福，朋友。 :)