Sunday, March 16, 2014

Towards the feeling of destroyed relationship

Dear Diary,

I re-activated my facebook. And I saw they are very sweet and good.

Turn my head and look at myself, I have gained so much weight and with dull skin.
Perhaps, I shall leave my facebook activated and remind myself always, I must live my life thousands times better than him!

Go for the brighter thinking, Ling. You can do it.

Always be positive!!
=)

What is friend?

Dear Diary,

I don't have a friend who can company me most of the time, be it distance, time or relationship, I don't have a friend who can share with me my life details...

I am lonely.

So I decided, I need to be fully attending to my work. I want to be a manager at my 28 y/o. A sales manager. 1 year and 8 months to go. I hope by this April, I can be promoted to a Service Sales Engineer.

By Aug, I can be senior Sales.
By next April, Account Manager (27 yo)
By next Aug, Snr Account Manager
Then the year after, become a Asst Sales Manager (28 yo)

I know I need to put many effort in order to get this. I will. And I will. I definitely MUST!

Do not look down on me, dude. I hate that feelings. Who never be new birds?

I must let you talk to me in a manner of RESPECT.

Diary

Dear Diary,

It has been a long time since the previous update to this blog. I think I prefer to hand write diary.

I am not in a pretty mood today.

Maybe, miss him already?

Couldn't totally forget about the past.

Diary, I need some self discipline to plan my work, my life. It is miserable at work, there were many things and I did not able to manage them completely. I haven't seen myself for a long time, I mean the one full with determination, strong self discipline, I couldn't be the one like I used to be when I was a student.

I need to force myself.
I am 26 years old this year, how time flies. And I just get to realize, the real discipline is when I am thinking what to plan for myself. How to head to a better pay job. That's where self discipline came from.
So long you are doing thing for yourself, you would think it is necessary to put in effort.

This is how I would like to motivate myself:
Whatever things I do is because of my benefit. I don't do it for others.

So, be self discipline.